Saturday, April 23, 2016
Thursday, April 21, 2016
Going Under
Right now I'm wishing that Dana really did have ties to the mafia. We are in desperate need of an aggressive lawyer and maybe some muscle. Our money is gone, the two weeks of having someone look after my father (badly) is half over, the primary care physician is dedicated to blocking us.
My branch of the family is drawing to a close. For the past month I've been getting two to three hours of sleep a night. I never did learn how to survive on my own, and honestly I have no real desire to survive anyway. Was already having a hard time dealing with depression before all this.
Trying not to take Xanax. It's been offered. Would be so easy to depend on it. Can't relax, mind running marathons whether I'm laying abed or not.
My art is not going to move fast enough to conjure up any money, but I have to try. Hoping to find someone who will pay for a drawing. I've been talking to artists at Saturday market, but everything requires initial investments funds I don't have.
I'd bet that Dana would make a great agent/manager. We'd be a good team. If ever she is going to offer me a kind word, it has to be now.
I have Moony's drawing done, hoping to hear from him in the next day or so. I have a drawing for Scott traced lout and prepared to begin. It won't bring in enough, but I'll take what I can get.
I also have three images of Marilyn Monroe traced out. Now...I do not have the money to have prints made. Obviously you can't sell a print for the same price as an original, but you can sell more copies. The original I can only sell once. So is it worth the time?
What should I be doing?
Dana, if you're out there, please help me.
My branch of the family is drawing to a close. For the past month I've been getting two to three hours of sleep a night. I never did learn how to survive on my own, and honestly I have no real desire to survive anyway. Was already having a hard time dealing with depression before all this.
Trying not to take Xanax. It's been offered. Would be so easy to depend on it. Can't relax, mind running marathons whether I'm laying abed or not.
My art is not going to move fast enough to conjure up any money, but I have to try. Hoping to find someone who will pay for a drawing. I've been talking to artists at Saturday market, but everything requires initial investments funds I don't have.
I'd bet that Dana would make a great agent/manager. We'd be a good team. If ever she is going to offer me a kind word, it has to be now.
I have Moony's drawing done, hoping to hear from him in the next day or so. I have a drawing for Scott traced lout and prepared to begin. It won't bring in enough, but I'll take what I can get.
I also have three images of Marilyn Monroe traced out. Now...I do not have the money to have prints made. Obviously you can't sell a print for the same price as an original, but you can sell more copies. The original I can only sell once. So is it worth the time?
What should I be doing?
Dana, if you're out there, please help me.
Friday, April 15, 2016
Latest
Cannot work on drawing. The situation is deteriorating, we need a lawyer though we cannot afford one. We had a glimmer of hope yesterday, finally got a doctor involved who has a clue and wants to help. Sadly, he is under the thumb of the primary care physician, a big name with Providence, who is determined to block any care or help. My father is beyond our capacity to help and keeping him in our care is a dna\\anger to him and to my mother. Every time he is sent home he is worse, every time he has an episode he gets worse. they know this, but refuse to keep hi, or even offere diagnosis. If they did that, Medicare would kick in and they would be fined for the number of times they sent him home untreated.
Medicare will not help. The VA will not help. Providence has formed a human wall to block to block care. They forcing us to pay out of pocket. This will leave us homeless and penniless in under a month.
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Edit: I did finish my drawing of Dana, and have scanned it. The scan doesn't quite capture the work - for instance, the light bounces off it badly on her elbow where I heavily shaded her jacket. Tomorrow if I get a chance I will try to photograph it.
We've got my father placed for two weeks in a care facility, and that will cost us some three-fourths of what money we have left. I can qa least finish Moony's drawing now.
Caring for my father takes at least three people watching him 24/7, sometimes needing us to call a neighbor for help when he has an episode. We are frayed to our end, exhausted and undone. Two months ago he was out back chopping wood.
Medicare will not help. The VA will not help. Providence has formed a human wall to block to block care. They forcing us to pay out of pocket. This will leave us homeless and penniless in under a month.
* * * * * * * * *
Edit: I did finish my drawing of Dana, and have scanned it. The scan doesn't quite capture the work - for instance, the light bounces off it badly on her elbow where I heavily shaded her jacket. Tomorrow if I get a chance I will try to photograph it.
We've got my father placed for two weeks in a care facility, and that will cost us some three-fourths of what money we have left. I can qa least finish Moony's drawing now.
Caring for my father takes at least three people watching him 24/7, sometimes needing us to call a neighbor for help when he has an episode. We are frayed to our end, exhausted and undone. Two months ago he was out back chopping wood.
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